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07 July 2007 @ 11:42 pm
*FAIL*  
Gah. Totally just realised - for real, not as vague assumption-like half-thought - that there is a whole subsection of lj and the enterwub devoted to original fic, and that I really should have started about ten years ago to actually build up a repertoire of any worth. Granted I would have been eleven, but I do remember writing some cross-dressing beach hut story when I was eleven. I don't know why I abandoned it. Because it was crap, probably.

Life is always full of nasty tiresome surprises like this. Why did I start writing again? Why did I start writing fanfiction? I love it dearly, but it ATE MY SOUL.

If I hadn't started writing maybe something else would have filled the void - something normal, like drinking myself into a liver disease or a vast passion for rolling around in the mud at Oxegen.

STUPID. I'd be better off hitting myself in the head with my pathology book. Anything, anything but this treadmill-like existence, constantly pouring my soul into things only for them to go nowhere.

And then there was Anthony Trollope. He has an incredible talent for making me want to strangle each and every one of his characters. I do want to find out what happens in the end of The Way We Live Now, but oh! The meandering way he writes does my head in. I foresee another Dickens situation, ie, classic and acclaimed writer failing to penetrate Rachel's thick head. One day, I suppose, I will admit that I am a prole and give up the fight. Today is not that day. Tomorrow, maybe.
 
 
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ickle sexual tyrantanjenue on July 7th, 2007 11:20 pm (UTC)
You know, fanfiction, while being a soul-devouring entity for sure, is actually amazing when it comes to original fic as well. I have a lot of friends who are writers of original fic, and their work just doesn't reach the calibre of a lot of fanfic writers, because they don't learn the intricacies of character development and relationships and such. Like, for fanfic, you're given a basis, and then it's up to you to explore that further, but so many original writers are lazy and just give the basis, which means a lot of fiction these days feels...incomplete, to me. (That could be just a personal opinion, but you know.)

And I dunno if it's any consolation, but I think your fanfic is brilliant.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Blue kissscoradh on July 15th, 2007 09:42 am (UTC)
I am deeply grateful to fanfic for all that it's taught me about writing, don't get me wrong. I could never have learned half those lessons on my own. What you're saying is totally correct. It's just, sometimes, I forget the old maxim of 'some people are better than you, some are worse', start thinking 'everyone is better, even the really crap people!' and this angst results.

And thanks, I'd never object to hearing that! ♥
Serenia: Oishi writingserenia on July 7th, 2007 11:30 pm (UTC)
Who needs a soul, anyway? XD
I think they're overrated. :P
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Gakuto: good morningscoradh on July 15th, 2007 09:43 am (UTC)
I believe they're sold on e-bay for under a dollar for three. :P
foreign thinks about you: the surprised mimeforeignthinks on July 7th, 2007 11:35 pm (UTC)
Nobody loves original fic. It makes me quite sad.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Fake: hugscoradh on July 15th, 2007 09:46 am (UTC)
Few people love MY original fic, which makes me VERY sad. (self-obsessed much?)
Riakessie on July 7th, 2007 11:55 pm (UTC)
I hate Dickens. Which is the Number One Thing an English degree/masters person can admit to, but I really want to just strangle him sometimes. :((
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Atobe: partyscoradh on July 15th, 2007 09:45 am (UTC)
I know he wrote for magazine serials, and it really feels sometimes that he's just filling up space. If there's anyone I wouldn't object to being abridged it would be him.

I'm looking forward to your review of City of Bones, btw! :D
ffahmed on July 8th, 2007 12:38 am (UTC)
psh there are plenty of supposedly good authors that I hate, and a lot of people do too. I think you can also categorize them as novels that you love after studying them and stories that are good on first read? Like, I love The Odyssey but I don't curl up at the end of the day with it. I think Dickens is in the former, for me at least.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Platinum Pair: neck kissscoradh on July 15th, 2007 09:47 am (UTC)
This is very true! And sadly for me, I don't have the opportunity of studying them as such. Not much room for that in a medical course (although I did try to get literature in under special study modules). I could do with some guidance, I suppose. Maybe there's an internet tutorial somewhere!
Gossgossymer on July 13th, 2007 11:35 pm (UTC)
just a note...
...am friending you. Yes, very random - but I like your fics - and squeaked when I just saw your original fic that's been posted. If you mind, just holler.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Ryoma: MomoRyoscoradh on July 15th, 2007 09:48 am (UTC)
Re: just a note...
No worries. And just so you know, if you click the original fic tag the other one I've written should come up. It's better than the last. :D
jehnt: sga - lorne - confuzzlementjehnt on August 9th, 2007 05:42 am (UTC)
Why did I start writing again? Why did I start writing fanfiction? I love it dearly, but it ATE MY SOUL.

You know, I'm pretty sure it doesn't work like this. I think your soul gets eaten first and then your brain reacts by writing. At least, that's how it is for me. Whenever I write fiction, it's because there's some crazy thing inside me driving me to pour words out onto the page. I believe people call this thing your "muse." Mine is dark-haired, tight-jean-wearing, alcoholic raging junkie prostitute, probably, but it's all good.