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18 September 2005 @ 10:05 pm
GIP, among other things. Ron, he speaketh the truth.  

I've just had something of an epiphany and I thought I should record it here, for later times when I feel blue. It will, quite possibly, make no sense at all to anyone else, so feel free to basely ignore this.

Reviewing can be as good as writing. Saying to someone else the sorts (varying, obviously, in the detail) of things that you wish other people would say to you ... it makes me feel good. Maybe my reviews are piles of animal excrement, maybe the authors roll their eyes at them, and maybe some appreciate them. It doesn't really matter; often just a little effort is required to make someone else feel good about their writing.

Then again, there are times I just read fics and don't leave feedback. Initially I did that all the time. Yet, and this is the thing, I had places where I'd  go, authors I'd rely on, to produce writing that I enjoyed. If they decided that, because they weren't getting enough or good enough quality reviews, to pack it all in and delete everything and leave fandom, then I'd feel annoyed and deprived. All because they didn' t know that me and people like me might be reading their writing and liking it, but just not saying so.

In relating it to myself, it occurred to me that, on the level of averages and chance and no accounting for taste, that there might be one or two people who feel like that about my fics. So often lately I've been gripped by a great desire to delete all my archived stories and just focus on rainspots, because if nothing else my later stuff has to be better than the older stuff. But, if there's even one person who finds my work a comfort blanket to return to again and again, as I find so many writers' work, or even if they do a flyby and laugh at one of them, then it's not right that I should delete all of it in a fit of pique.

Er, that was pretty much my epiphany. It's a big deal to me, anyway. I'm not going anywhere. Sometimes that's a more astonishing thing than going somewhere.

skuf, if you read this, I feel I've let you in for some flak. That wasn't fair. Really and truly, you're right. Bloody hell, you're a catalyst. 

So, I'm sorry.

Ain't this life so sweet?

Whether or not anyone notices, I'm going to try and be here, a bit more, instead of spending all my time in the place where I wish I was.

 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: "This Year's Love (had better last)," David Gray
 
 
 
Rose: Cheeringfourth_rose on September 18th, 2005 02:50 pm (UTC)
But, if there's even one person who finds my work a comfort blanket to return to again and again, as I find so many writers' work, or even if they do a flyby and laugh at one of them, then it's not right that I should delete all of it in a fit of pique.

As someone who loves both your older and your newer fics, I can only applaud! :-)
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 19th, 2005 12:42 pm (UTC)
Cheers, love.

Btw, do you and cutecoati have Skyehawke a/cs? It only occured to me just recently that you were talking about the new archive and needing new places to put fic ... maybe you already have a SH a/c but if you don't, I'll be happy to register ye. xD
Rose: Fourth Rosefourth_rose on September 19th, 2005 02:26 pm (UTC)
No, I don't have a Skyehawke account, and neither has cutecoati. I'd love to have one (and I'm sure she would too) - it would be great if you could register us! Thank you! ♥
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Luna can you see them?scoradh on September 20th, 2005 03:47 am (UTC)
Sure thing, babes! I'll sign the two of you up tonight (I'm in college now). It isn't the greatest site in the world, tbh, but still -- you gotta spread the fic love around!
cutecoati: Coati4cutecoati on September 20th, 2005 04:58 am (UTC)
*beams*

*snuggles you*

Thanks, darling! And I can only second what you and all the others said about reviews... of course we all write for our own enjoyment, but to see that something you wrote can make someone else smile, grin or maybe just distract them from RL for some time (or cry, of course!) *babbles* - that's somehow just special [/use of "some" in all kind of compositions]...
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 20th, 2005 01:02 pm (UTC)
I know. What you're saying is true. But sometimes you want the moon ... and you have to realise that it's okay when you're only getting the reflection of it in a puddle.

Some is a word whore. She'll do whatever you want. *lewd wink*
doctor watson is my copilot: seamus/dean ~linnpuzzlekaalee on September 18th, 2005 03:26 pm (UTC)
Reviewing can be as good as writing. Saying to someone else the sorts (varying, obviously, in the detail) of things that you wish other people would say to you ... it makes me feel good. Maybe my reviews are piles of animal excrement, maybe the authors roll their eyes at them, and maybe some appreciate them. It doesn't really matter; often just a little effort is required to make someone else feel good about their writing.

Being that we're so very new to each other, I just saw this on my flist and had to comment. ♥

When I delurked in fandom, I loved leaving reviews for things that really spoke to me. Something about, for me, getting out what I liked within something helped me know what the piece had really said to me. I met several authors that way, and had some truly wonderful conversations. A little while after that, I started dabbling in little bits of writing, and have been writing for about a year and a half now. With my job as it is, I read MUCH less fanfic that I'd like, but I have to say that the experience of falling into a story enough to *want* to tell the author what spoke to me is something I still like.

And? To be honest? Getting reviews like that from readers? Is fucking gold. It is AMAZING to know that something I've written has moved someone to tell me *what* they liked about it.

And your reviews today? Some of the best I've received. You managed to achieve a balance of letting me know what spoke to you and what might have been more weak and that was so helpful, if that makes any sense? I rarely love everything about a book or movie or story. It's like a student telling me that I am *one of* her favorite teachers. It feels really REAL to me. A lot of people in the moment may tell me that I'm their favorite teacher [not to imply that that is my goal, heh], but to have it sort of qualified: "You're really, really good and almost my favorite." feels like something HUGE to me.

Hmmm... I'm not quite sure that I'm making my point here.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that the honesty that came through in your reviews really felt like it came from the heart. It meant a lot to me. Thank you.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Shazzam Lostscoradh on September 19th, 2005 12:39 pm (UTC)
*love love love* I only wish I could review more often, but I find that the time just isn't there. Then when I do it, it feels seriously good. One of those natural highs Hugh Grant was on about in "About a Boy."

I'm glad, firstly, that you didn't think my reviews were insane ... and secondly, that you took the crit okay. For one thing, flaws are inevitable, opinion is subjective for another, and lastly, I wouldn't have spotted them if I wasn't so caught up in the story. As for the rest, while it might have sounded cliched, I don't say things like that if I don't mean them. I'm bizarrely honest in some way. xD

Not to mention that, if you like someone's stories and you can review them to such length (er), it tends to help you make friends! You've both got something you enjoy -- their stories!

PS. Welcome to the madness.
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 19th, 2005 12:44 pm (UTC)
PS
Man, all your icons are gorgeous? Where do you get them? They make me want to drop everything and blatantly ship Seamus/Dean (even though I just recently wrote Seamus/Neville). *marvels*
doctor watson is my copilot: deamus ~giftart for me by harkskarkaalee on September 19th, 2005 06:48 pm (UTC)
Re: PS
Icons? Several of them are from art that some incredibly talented and nice people have made for me. (eeee! seamus/neville! I wrote it, too! you must LINK ME!)

and I pretty much blatantly ship Seamus/Dean. Ask anyone on my flist. I write a lot of different things, but s/d is like, my... love.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Harry kissscoradh on September 20th, 2005 03:51 am (UTC)
Re: PS
Wow, I'm jealous! But they're seriously beautiful. I'm just staring at the one where Dean is painting Seamus ... I mean, H/D icons are ten a penny and you get pretty 'blah' about seeing Radcliffe and Felton in a manipped clinch over and over. These are ver' refreshing!

This is the Seamus/Neville I wrote. There's not much to go on, as a ship, so it's not like I had a great standard to compete against. Ergo it's crap, but with rareships you often have to take what you're given, sadly. :P

Yes, I gathered that. It's really cool; you can do so much with it, and them, because you're not so restricted as you are with H/D, or even R/S, and you can play around and extrapolate to your heart's content! I love rareships; I did a lengthy hand at Terry/Michael before canon went and screwed things up back in July. xD
Lord Marmaduke Newbrycatsmeat on September 18th, 2005 06:48 pm (UTC)
David Grey is bad for the liver. Just thought you should know.
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 19th, 2005 12:45 pm (UTC)
Yeah, but David Gray is sex.
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every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 19th, 2005 12:47 pm (UTC)
Phew. I felt mad guilty there for a bit.

Yes, they were the ones. Er. You have no idea how much brain-space my self-hate takes up. But I won't be deleting. I may try some editing, if I've the stomach for it!
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every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 23rd, 2005 07:35 am (UTC)
No, just the adverbs. xD

I will do my utmost.