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05 December 2005 @ 05:09 pm
Catharsis time  
God, the way to make people stick around? Get them to say they'll be away ... *facepalm*

I just need to get this out of my system before tackling the wonder that is my amino acid flashcards. (Yes, I made some. Stop sniggering.)

I've come to the realisation that I'm not responsible for how other people feel about me. If they like, hate, love, fancy, despise me, it's (mostly) not my fault. So I should stop taking responsibility for it.

On the other hand, few mental things are more difficult than realising that other people don't see you as the person you think you are.

To sum up: Yeah, it's pretty obvious that the boy don't fancy me!

And I could wish that my friends didn't talk about the Australian custom of sucking and biting off the testicles of sheep in reference to my sexual habits. At least, not when the person I fancy is around. Oh, god.

cynicalpirate -- I got an idea exactly about the time I was being lectured on leukaemia. Hope it works ... *sigh*
Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Current Music: "Letter to a John," Ani Difranco
Minnowminnow_53 on December 5th, 2005 10:20 am (UTC)
Hey, I'm sueing! You didn't tell me which biomolecule I am! Maybe I'm better off not knowing.

What stopped me dead was in reference to my sexual habits. Uh...sheep? When? Have I missed something?

Okay, I'm not funny: this is a subjective/objective perception point, btw. I think my jokes are hilarious, but nobody else sees them the same way. We can be totally solipsistic together!

Seriously, if he doesn't fancy you, that IS his problem. Okay? *hugs*

every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Draco well shitscoradh on December 5th, 2005 10:41 am (UTC)
You can be a hydroxyl, too, like all the cool kids! I haven't seen you around much lately. I guess it's all go for Christmas, in normal households (ie not mine!).

No, that's a thing you do to sheep ... she was implying I did it to boys. She seems to think teasing me when cute boys are around is a great ploy. Shame, cause otherwise she's great.

He just hasn't a clue. If he hated me it would at least show something ... I suppose, at least he knows my name. I have the dubious honour of being the most forgettable girl in my class!
Minnowminnow_53 on December 5th, 2005 12:34 pm (UTC)
Hydroxyl. Mmm. Is that something to do with water? Cool water?

I was only joking about the sheep! And no, I, and therefore my household, do not do normal Christmas stuff -- at the moment, I'm in a dark night of the soul, but not so intense. The sort of evening of the soul, perhaps. Anyway.

I really can't imagine you're forgettable!

every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 5th, 2005 12:44 pm (UTC)
No. Alcohol. xD To be precise, the functional group of the biomolecule that makes up alcohol, and thus gives it its polar properties, etc, etc, crap.

The long dark teatime of the soul, perhaps? ;D You seem a little ... sad, I hope everything's all right?!

Perhaps not when you've got to know me, but on appearance basis I am non-descript, and an untidy dresser to the extent that no one would look on me as a beautiful specimen. I have to settle for all the personality shit. Whee!
Minnowminnow_53 on December 5th, 2005 01:18 pm (UTC)
*perks up* Alcohol? Yeah, I can relate to that.

It's just that I never do anything for too long, and I'm coming to the end of R/S: one fic to go, for a challenge I have to honour, then I'll be elsewhere. And it's sad, really, but sometimes - or a LOT of times! - you need to move on.

every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 5th, 2005 01:38 pm (UTC)
Can't we all? *bows to the new god of tequila*

Oh ... do you mean to another ship? Or out of all fandom? Please not the latter!
Minnowminnow_53 on December 6th, 2005 12:35 am (UTC)
Out of fandom. I don't see any point in another pairing: I want to play with my own characters again now, and have a bit of a rest beforehand. I've written at least a novel in words this year! I'll probably be able to use some of it later too, and then minnow_53 can sue me... :D Sorry, I'm a bit litigious at the moment, obviously.

every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Douglas Adamsscoradh on December 6th, 2005 01:14 am (UTC)
Oh no! This is always so painful, when people leave. I want to beg you to stay, but I know when people bow out of fandom it's always because they really need to. I hope you won't be deleting your journal, though? I mean, people still love your fics *points to self*. It would be kinda mean to take them away.

Oh, I'm gonna miss you. You will sort of stay in touch, won't you?

And good luck with a novel! I'll be expecting a signed copy, now. :P
Minnowminnow_53 on December 6th, 2005 10:03 am (UTC)
Oh, I would never delete my journal! It's a year's hard work and I'm very proud of it, whatever it's like objectively. And there's every chance I'll want to update it from time to time: I'm working on a couple of fics at the moment, actually. It's just... I used to sit at the computer and a few hours later there'd be a story to edit. Now, it's suddenly got conscious, which really, really worries me, because I've never written like that before. Just need to get over it. I've also got a sort of blog, and I'll probably tell people about that, and they can keep up with it, though it's very weird.

The novel won't get very far if I don't get over my ficphobia! :D

I do have a history of changing my mind about things as well.

No Apologiesaidenfire on December 5th, 2005 10:42 am (UTC)
Hi, you just friended me, and I was wondering did you just see me around, or did something prompt it? Whichever way, welcome! I'm thrilled to have you. :)
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Charlie/Jackscoradh on December 5th, 2005 11:26 am (UTC)
Oh yes, sorry! I was meaning to mention it. Yes, I've seen you around -- mainly on silentauror, I think. xD

My pervy mind needs a leash, omg. "Have you." Oh, dear.
No Apologiesaidenfire on December 5th, 2005 11:32 am (UTC)
Ahaha. silentauror is my favorite person in the world. So much love omg. :))))

Heh. I'm thrilled to have you, baby. *smirk*
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Fluffy the destroyer of worldsscoradh on December 5th, 2005 12:16 pm (UTC)
*severe* You must stop using words with even vague sexual connotations at once! I've just found that the predictive text on my phone can spell 'buttsex' but not 'phallic umbrellas'. :P Brain explodey.
No Apologies: hp buttsexsubtextaidenfire on December 8th, 2005 10:34 am (UTC)
*uses appropriate icon*
amazing vaguely humanoid armadilloperson: lurkingcryptid on December 5th, 2005 12:45 pm (UTC)
Hiii, I just read several entries of yours that I've missed because I'm Bad And Horrible, so now I know about the creative process behind Star Wars and the detachable brains of Bond girls and how to make those little hearts (I think I've learned that now, anyway, although I haven't had the opportunity to test it yet... ♥ ), and wow you really are one of the coolest people who live in my computer kthx.

Sympathies on the boy troubles of troublesome boys. But hey, if he, like any sensible person, will dismiss the sheep talk as nonsense, it might still draw his attention to you? Unique selling points and all that. But since I fail equally badly at marketing and love, you should probably just ignore me. *headdesks just a little bit* XP
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Dumbledore's armyscoradh on December 5th, 2005 04:10 pm (UTC)
Your computer is very comfortable; I must commend you on your tasteful decor. :D My god, but I've just written this week's article. This is a line from it (the editor demanded 'something Christmassy, guys' -- god, it sucks to have better grammar than your editor):

The topic this Christmas is: ‘obesity.’ Granted, at first glance it doesn’t seem like a very jolly topic. When one thinks of morbid obesity, holly and discordant schoolchildren carol singers and virgin births do not immediately spring to mind, it is true. However, there are some links that are worth delving beneath the surface to find. After all, the children of the Christian world will be hankering for PSPs and Narnia: the Playstation Game (forget Satan, that’s one evil concept) and whatever newfangled robot the toy companies chose to foist on the market this year. They will not be drooling over the newest models of gold, frankincense and myrrh. Plastic, Jean Paul Gaultier Child and baby Prozac are the orders of the day. Yet, we are still expected to believe that the season of rampant materialism has something to do with a minor religious incident far in the past. Really, you might as well say that self-mutilation harks back to Abraham wielding the knife over his only son. But that, of course, is not what people want to hear at this time of year. It would probably make the baby Jesus cry. Ignore all those horrid people who find Christmas such a trial that they feel suicide is the only way out. They just aren’t jamming with the holiday spirit, y’all!

Sorry, that's one long quote, but I couldn't split it up without rendering it even more non-sensical. Tell me, is it dire?!

I'm hoping he'll realise -- and everyone else too -- that's she's a bit immature and an attention-seeker. But, boys don't really think that much about stuff. I don't think. Huh, my marketing sucks so much. I would have been fired years ago if I'd been for real. xD
Anansayanansay on December 5th, 2005 01:21 pm (UTC)
I've come to the realisation that I'm not responsible for how other people feel about me. If they like, hate, love, fancy, despise me, it's (mostly) not my fault. So I should stop taking responsibility for it.

In life, I've learned that you cannot live for other people, because there will always be people who will not like your choices. But they can come and go and YOU will always have to live with the consequences of your decisions.

If someone dislikes me and I haven't done anything TO them, then it's their business. That's it.
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 5th, 2005 04:13 pm (UTC)
That really struck a chord, I must say. Maybe I'm growing up. I was wondering if I was the only one who found that life seemed to have a triffic number of lessons to dump on me. xD

Except existing ... that's what I always thought. But again, not taking anyone else's monkeys from here on in!
moocow: [VM] i was happy when you used memisconstrue on December 5th, 2005 03:30 pm (UTC)
if it makes you feel at all better I'm about to have Spanish tense flashcards, and I really should have made amino ones, or at least the whole carboxyl, hydroxl, etc. groups for last year.

um, I did not know about that quaint Australian habit. I will make sure to no go sheeping with any kinky Australians.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: End of the worldscoradh on December 5th, 2005 04:14 pm (UTC)
Yeah, the biomolecules? Have those too. I can get them right, much good may it do me, eh?

I'm sure that's what the boy thought too. Gah. *headdesk*
moocow: [VM] gangstas in da HOODmisconstrue on December 5th, 2005 05:47 pm (UTC)
aw, you're not a crazy Australian so it should be okay. :)
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 6th, 2005 12:03 am (UTC)
Only by birth. xD
moocow: the center CANNOT holdmisconstrue on December 6th, 2005 03:37 pm (UTC)
:O! I totally did not know you were born Australian! whoops. sorry! well uh, you're not of the ... you know ... sheep-thingie portion are you?
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 7th, 2005 08:56 am (UTC)
Most people don't -- I identify more with Ireland now, for better or worse.

And no.

I lived in a fairly urbanised area. xD
Insufferable, man.: harryroncynicalpirate on December 6th, 2005 03:09 pm (UTC)
Sorry to add to your mental pain - but I don't see you as a sheep-testicle-sucker-and-biter. *shrugs* Just not convinced.

Tool. (The boy, I mean.)

Leukaemia. Sounds... promising. *is going to love getting caught up in this again*
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 7th, 2005 08:57 am (UTC)
THANK YOU. Care to provide a signed testimonial to that effect?!

Yes. But pretty.

Not going to give it to anyone, mind. Although Voldemort looks like he already has it.
Insufferable, man.: harryroncynicalpirate on December 7th, 2005 09:38 am (UTC)
I, the undersigned, testify that scoradh, to the best of my knowledge, does not molest farmyard animals.

*signature in flowery writing*

*le sigh*

Was going to say that might be a handy way of getting rid of him, but hm. Slightly poor taste, perhaps.
Caitcoralia13 on December 8th, 2005 10:40 am (UTC)
Oh, my dear. You and your flash-cards and sheep testicles - you live such a wild life. And just so you know, I adore you, and it is totally your fault.
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on December 8th, 2005 02:38 pm (UTC)
I seem to be quite likeable, by default or something. Regard, a convo between Mater and I, re: what I want for Christmas.

ME: Don't get me anything expensive, because, you know, uni books and acom and stuff.

MUM: But I was just thinking we should get you something special, you deserve it for never giving us any trouble!

And I'm not even a nice person! Gee.
Caitcoralia13 on December 8th, 2005 06:15 pm (UTC)
Oh, I love it when parents do stuff like that! I think you're nice. Next year will be awesome! :D