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04 September 2006 @ 10:53 pm
Misery begets no company  
I really like the line in Saved! (one of my fav films) where Mandy Moore -- yes, the bubblegum singer -- says "This is not how I wanted to remember my prom. This is not how I wanted to remember my life." 

It's an awesome line, full of feelings and emotions and other useful things. I often think of it myself. This is not how I want to remember my life.* Writing and reading porn might not be as bad for you as taking Es or even getting drunk every night, but it's still an addiction and an unwholesome one at that. All reading is dangerous, in fact. Never doubt that for a second. 

Still, I'm too lazy to actually figure out how I would like to remember my life. 'Not like this' does cover it, but it's rather non-specific. Then tonight I watched Junior Doctors, a programme about (wait for it) junior doctors at St Vincent's in Dublin. Holy fuck, that's not how I want to remember my life either. I get this sinking feeling that my future is not going to be anything like Grey's Anatomy. 

(No, the fic-dumping is not over. I'm sorry if it bothers people, especially HP people, but in truth I have no idea why most of you are here. No. Idea. My life hardly makes for enthralling reading, and you can find all my fics in the Mistresslists or my memories. In any case, I want to see my fics all prettily laid out on my journal, even if no one else does.)

* the key is not to remember anything ever at all. spend most of my life trying to do that, i'faith.

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jehnt: misc - fashion - sunglassesjehnt on September 6th, 2006 11:47 pm (UTC)
I think that if anything honestly bad ever happened to me I'd die of shock.

I used to think that. But then -- well, did I ever tell you about the time I dropped out of high school? Twice? So, yeah, point is, awful situation. Ever since then everything has seemed really not that dramatic. Not that I recommend mental breakdowns as a way to put things in perspective, but hey.

And I think day-to-day plans are overrated. Go where the wind takes you.

Or something.

I don't know what I'm saying anymore.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: boykissscoradh on September 8th, 2006 09:06 pm (UTC)
I know it's cliched, but the whole starving African babies? Whenever something like that comes up on the news, I immediately feel more grounded. And they always seem to come up just when I need grounding the most.

Not that I recommend mental breakdowns as a way to put things in perspective, but hey

[hugs] I know this is a lame thing to say, but you're really awesome at graphic-type things. That, even that, is enough to make you more special than a lot of people I know. So. Yeah. ♥
jehnt: sga - john/rodney - geeksjehnt on September 9th, 2006 08:16 pm (UTC)
It's not a lame thing to say! I try hard to be awesome at graphic-type things so it's nice to hear that someone thinks I've succeeded. XD

And yeah, starving African babies = REALLY SAD. Whenever I hear about things like that I walk around my house going "I love my computer! I love my cheese crackers! I love my bedspread!" because then I feel like, ridiculously lucky to have all that I do.