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05 January 2008 @ 07:23 pm
only fools fall in love  
Today the boy I’m madly in love with (please note the ironic italics) is holding his twenty-first birthday party. I’m full of woe, and here’s why: not because I wasn’t invited (I was), or because I’m not going (I’m not), but because he has a girlfriend (with enormous gums and shoulders like a prop forward).

I absolutely positively cross-my-heart did not mean to have another crush for at least a decade, especially not someone who was already taken, but this totally blindsided me. I think it’s because he’s tall and nice, whereas I tend to go for short bastards. In retrospect I can see I fell for him when he pulled out a chair for me and my friend the first time we all skipped wards for coffee. That doesn’t sound like a big deal, but I’d never talked to him before and the fact that he knew my name was more than I expected. At this point he was a blot of insignificance to me also.

Sadly this was not to last.

Plus ... he smells delicious.

So while I sit here and sulk, and while he (and JFlan) celebrate their birthdays, I think you guys should cheer me up. Link me to great porn, none of it involving huge gums or in fact girls at all. Or link me to kittens. Kittens are always good. Or use your initiative. Or whatever. I’m pathetic and I want to wallow, goddammit.
 
 
Current Mood: jealousjealous
Current Music: sing for your supper (cathy davey)
 
 
 
Margravine Palavar: BWCatMargravinemargravine on January 5th, 2008 07:44 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you're having a day of woe. Maybe what you need is Just A Little Guy. Foul mouthed stream of consciousness commentary on cute l'il animals!
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Pink parasolscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:29 am (UTC)
lol, I've seen that blog before! I think I'll keep it bookmarked - it's too good to save just for rainy days.
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every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Kitties: blue kitteh + green grassscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:32 am (UTC)
Oh, thank you! Lots and lots of kitties! I think I've read that story before (been in fandom waaaay too long), but it's a nice one to reminded of.
karorumetallium: iwantpronkarorumetallium on January 5th, 2008 08:28 pm (UTC)
... been there, done that. Twice. Falling in love madly with someone that doesn't feel the same way, I mean. Even if that person looks my way, even if that person cares for me, though not in the way I'd like them to care for me.

I have fics with guys gettin' it on and no girls in sight, but I don't think you'd like them because I wrote them XDDDD. And no, I don't have kittens for you, but I have some advice, since I've lived on a broken hearted basis FOR YEARS (yes I have very bad luck in love and tend to the obsessive side).

THINGS PASS. EVEN FEELINGS. THEY ALWAYS PASS.

Cheer up ^____^
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Black Booksscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:35 am (UTC)
I know, I know! That is totally the best thing I've ever learned about life. You just have to wait. And the sharp edge dulls. I suppose there are more exciting ways to live life, but this way works for me. I'm glad I'm not alone in that. ♥
My imaginary friend thinks I'm brilliant.: House-Blah Blah Blahlanitha on January 5th, 2008 09:05 pm (UTC)
Luckily, you're not the only poor sod at home on a Saturday evening. With a heart filled with sadness and a love that will never be...
Woe is us.

*sniff*

Shall be stealing the distractions people are posting for you.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Beautiful human being/potatoscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:36 am (UTC)
At least we have TV. And House!
spark_of_chaosspark_of_chaos on January 5th, 2008 09:48 pm (UTC)
Erm. Just about any fic from this year's hd_hols would be a viable excuse to cry your eyes out. Though you might instead download some Happy Tree Friends bloody mishmash and take out any violent impulses on something soft and unprotesting. :/

Girlfriends are not a constant fixture?
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:39 am (UTC)
Happy Tree Friends? Are they affiliated with behavioural science modules?

My girlfriends are all wrapped up in their footfaces boyfriends. Except for the one who doesn't have one, and she's all wrapped up in that. But I must excuse them, for I'm the same myself.
spark_of_chaosspark_of_chaos on January 13th, 2008 09:35 am (UTC)
Erm, no. They are affiliated with a bunch of -it so seems- quite messed up people, who thought to make a cartoon in which random fluffy animals (the Happy Tree friends) die a gruesome and bloody death in every other scene. I remember when I was, what, ninth grade the boys from my class were all over it.

Boyfriends, like all major things in life, are a pain in the arse - bad with them, worse without them.
orwhoeveriamorwhoeveriam on January 6th, 2008 12:10 am (UTC)
oo, i'll wallow with you. i'm sick. well, actually, i was injured by my own exploding body parts. seriously. kinda. also, my boyfriend lives on exactly the opposite side of the country and is apparently completely mystified by the concept of like calling.

do you read xkcd? it's webcomic of awesome. if not, start with http://xkcd.com/352/

also, have you read "Rebuilding Babel"? it's a pretty awesome McShep fic. http://community.livejournal.com/sga_flashfic/610119.html

oh, and if you're feeling particularly, i dunno, vengeful, read the anarchist cookbook and fantasize about poisoning her coffee. http://home.scarlet.be/comicstrip/anarcook/nicotine.htm

sorry the links aren't pretty and formatted. i puzzled, i googled, i got confused and gave up.
anyway, hope you feel better.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Blue haired boy w/ phonescoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:42 am (UTC)
Exploding body parts? OMG. Are you okay?

I read that fic, which was great, if not exactly the fluffy bunny stuff in which I was hoping to wallow. Maybe I should have gone to the party after all and poisoned her vodka...

Lemme see if I can explain:

[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<a [...] (doubles).>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]

Exploding body parts? OMG. Are you okay?

I read that fic, which was great, if not exactly the fluffy bunny stuff in which I was hoping to wallow. Maybe I should have gone to the party after all and poisoned her vodka...

Lemme see if I can explain:

<a href=

Then you put the link in inverted commas (doubles). Close the > bracket. Write what you want the link to be (here is my link) and follow it with </a>.

Much better, thanks!
orwhoeveriamorwhoeveriam on January 13th, 2008 08:40 am (UTC)
ah, cool, thanks.
yeah, i had an ovarian cyst that ruptured and hemorrhaged. which is apparently not as bad as it sounds, but it really hurt.
glad you feel better :)
Rose Wood: other music [koki] wtfrozillla on January 6th, 2008 12:11 am (UTC)
My friend writes some pretty good Jpop porn. aneighthdomain. No women involved. :-D
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Blue parasolscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:40 am (UTC)
Ooh. I don't follow Jpop, but I might check it out regardless.
LOL, SCONE: kame randomrolling_scone on January 6th, 2008 01:03 am (UTC)
this cheers me up :))

...as do some other stuff in my memories. band intro posts also make for hours of glee if you find good ones. >.>
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Candy lipsscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:44 am (UTC)
Oh man, those captions look hilarous even if the pics won't load on my slowslow dialup. Must go back and inspect when I return to broadbandland. :DD
Yo.: I've got a theoryinsipid_paragon on January 6th, 2008 01:54 am (UTC)
Lurky stranger thinks you need a sneezing panda.

Also, you gotta fight for your right to boy toys. Hang in there. Maybe Big Gums'll act like a tree and get out of there.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Shishido: shut up Choutarouscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:45 am (UTC)
Hang in there. Maybe Big Gums'll act like a tree and get out of there.

Hmm.

My BFF and my mom both thought she was 'checking up on him' when she came all the way back from a student exchange in Holland to go to Med ball.

Maybe there'll be something worth checking up on, in time!
kestrelsparhawkkestrelsparhawk on January 6th, 2008 03:17 am (UTC)
From the observations of a lifetime batting away crush feelings, I will share what I have observed: people break up all the time. You just gotta be there when it happens.

I concur with the rec (I THINK it was a rec) of reading HD_Hols. There's quite a bit of hot porn, some very funny stuff, some happy endings, and if you want to thoroughly, thoroughly be sad, The Price We Pay for Wings is lovely: angsty, painful and hopeful, and all about love.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Blue kissscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:46 am (UTC)
You just gotta be there when it happens.

And of course, this is just when we both get put on separate placements for three whole months. *woeface*

Bother! I still have to read that. 10 pages of comments can't be wrong. I'll have to wait till the hype dies down, though, or I'll get too jealous to appreciate it.
kestrelsparhawkkestrelsparhawk on January 13th, 2008 01:32 am (UTC)
'll have to wait till the hype dies down, though, or I'll get too jealous to appreciate it


Hype? Now here's where I appear to live in a different fandom. I've seen several recs for it, but that's it. But then, I've seen three recs for my fic, and one of the people commenting said she'd seen it recc'd a lot of places. (No, this is not passive aggressive bragging; I'm complaining that I'm clueless!)

I am SO GLAD you are working on the sequel to the Road Less Traveled now. My memory sucks so badly, I have to re-read it first, which I think is a GOOD thing. For one thing, it helps put off the time where I'll be hanging over your lj helplessly, refreshing and hoping another chapter will miraculously appear!

I do hope things are looking a little better for you this month. and, seriously, read upbeat stuff first.
somesundaymorn: Obsessionsomesundaymorn on January 7th, 2008 11:33 am (UTC)
the use of my initiative...or whatever.
Two days after the incident. I want to give you something else.

I love almost (I wouldn't want you to delude yourself. Also people tend to appreciate when I am truthful) everything you write. The truth is that I am a H/D shipper and although I have read your other pairings I can't say I love them, I ...uh... like them. Mostly for the literary quality.

You have something many H/D writers lack, which is very unfortunate. You, in some mysterious way, have something unique. Perhaps it is that you write a bit personal.

It was like my best of spring or my best of autumns (can't decide which one I like the best) reading your stuff. Don't despair, Snakes and Ladders might have become more famous but I like the other ones better, they were more free.

Love
Somesundaymorning

ps. Drink a cup of tea/coffee, whichever one is your opium.

every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Darcy'd do himselfscoradh on January 13th, 2008 12:49 am (UTC)
Re: the use of my initiative...or whatever.
You have something many H/D writers lack, which is very unfortunate. You, in some mysterious way, have something unique. Perhaps it is that you write a bit personal.


It's funny you should say that. Most of my fics spring from my daydreams about my own (non-existent, thanks to Big Gums) love life. I'll think about something I wish could happen, and the wish-fulfillment comes in having it happen to the characters about whom I'm writing. Maybe that accounts for the personal element.

That aside, your comment was the most cheering thing on this post. (Not that the others weren't cheering!) Unexpected praise is such a bonus. I'm glad you like my stuff. I read back on it and wince, but fortunately a lot of people don't.

somesundaymornsomesundaymorn on January 13th, 2008 07:59 pm (UTC)
Re: the use of my initiative...or whatever.
That most likely is it, and perhaps a vivid imagination is brought to the mix (as the details are as vivid).

I'm glad that I could give you a smile, it's the least I could do.
Love


on a yellow spaceship: dodoo_glorianna on April 12th, 2008 06:44 pm (UTC)
LOL! What does this boy whom you're madly in love with smell like? I like boys who smell nice too, and those who look good in well-worn jeans.

(We seem to be similarly afflicted, don't we? *sigh*)
on a yellow spaceship: dodoo_glorianna on April 12th, 2008 06:45 pm (UTC)
*Shit. I think that's "who you're madly in love with."
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: CS+TAI: heart handsscoradh on April 12th, 2008 09:32 pm (UTC)
God, I can't remember. One of those subtle, expensive aftershaves, I'm pretty sure.

It's not the worst affliction to have, though, nice-smelling jeans-wearin' pretty bois. ;D