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21 January 2008 @ 08:55 pm
drink tea. there's plenty of tea.  
Today was not such a terribly good day.

I saw a man so jaundiced he was actually the colour of a banana, which I'm sure wasn't good for him. (I also think he may have wet himself while I was examining him, but there are some things too TMI for even my pity-party brain to contemplate.)

Our official tutor returned from the South Pole - don't even ask - which means actual work from now on, as opposed to faffing around with consultants.

The smell in one surgical ward was bad enough to make me faint. Faint.

I discovered that my 47,000-word Big Bang fic - probably the best work I've ever done - breaks one of the most important rules of the fest and is thus inadmissable. This is what I get for latching on to an idea and letting it run away with me. I'm so disappointed I could actually cry.

Speaking of rules, breaking the 'no-sequels' one is a no-brainer. The Road Less Travelled was an unexpected hit. I just know I'm not hitting the right note with the Three Steps Back.

And today, my f-o list hit 500.

I should be happy about this, right? It's an achievement. But. It feels like I've clawed every achievement from fandom, with tearing and teeth and blood. Others have risen like phoenixes. (Phoenixi?) Easily. I realise this is due to my inability to write proper porn, and over the last six months I haven't had time to let it bother me, butbutbut.

I just feel like I want something good to happen - not just ordinary, 'finding twenty bucks and a free breakfast*' good, but really damn extra-special good.

Also, to those 200-odd people I don't know: hi!

* Dead Like Me, people. Yes.
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: work (jimmy eat world)
one minute movie reviewsoneminutemovies on January 21st, 2008 09:58 pm (UTC)
Your writing is unique, and I think that may be why your claim to fame has not been as effortless as some people's. I think what you've achieved at this point may be different than many authors' 500+ friends-of list, as fans of your writing will not easily find other fiction a good substitute for yours.

I hope your extra specially good thing happens soon.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: SGA: Two of usscoradh on January 22nd, 2008 06:49 pm (UTC)
Wow! That's a seriously lovely way of putting it. I think in the uniqueness there's a good quotient of bonkers-ness, but still. Thank you.

It did! I got my first choice, real nice accomodation confirmed. WHEE!