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21 January 2008 @ 08:55 pm
drink tea. there's plenty of tea.  
Today was not such a terribly good day.

I saw a man so jaundiced he was actually the colour of a banana, which I'm sure wasn't good for him. (I also think he may have wet himself while I was examining him, but there are some things too TMI for even my pity-party brain to contemplate.)

Our official tutor returned from the South Pole - don't even ask - which means actual work from now on, as opposed to faffing around with consultants.

The smell in one surgical ward was bad enough to make me faint. Faint.

I discovered that my 47,000-word Big Bang fic - probably the best work I've ever done - breaks one of the most important rules of the fest and is thus inadmissable. This is what I get for latching on to an idea and letting it run away with me. I'm so disappointed I could actually cry.

Speaking of rules, breaking the 'no-sequels' one is a no-brainer. The Road Less Travelled was an unexpected hit. I just know I'm not hitting the right note with the Three Steps Back.

And today, my f-o list hit 500.

I should be happy about this, right? It's an achievement. But. It feels like I've clawed every achievement from fandom, with tearing and teeth and blood. Others have risen like phoenixes. (Phoenixi?) Easily. I realise this is due to my inability to write proper porn, and over the last six months I haven't had time to let it bother me, butbutbut.

I just feel like I want something good to happen - not just ordinary, 'finding twenty bucks and a free breakfast*' good, but really damn extra-special good.

Also, to those 200-odd people I don't know: hi!

* Dead Like Me, people. Yes.
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: work (jimmy eat world)
(Anonymous) on January 21st, 2008 10:28 pm (UTC)
Not hitting the right note?! I literally have to CALM myself down before reading a new chapter of Three Steps Back. That's how excited I get.

When I picture Albus Severus or Scorpius, I only see them the way you've written them. If JKR were to write a (snort) sequel to the 7th book with all the epilogue kids in it, I'd be sitting there reading it thinking "Where the heck is Rambo?" and "Why on earth is Albus eating a brownie? Doesn't he know how much gluten there must be in it??"

So as lame as I may sound, please don't have second thoughts about the sequel. Reading each new chapter as it comes out has become one of the highlights of my weekend.

Also, you MUST post your Big Bang fic. :)
JRevalangui on January 22nd, 2008 12:31 am (UTC)
Oh, so it's not just me doing the "breathe, breathe" thing? XD.
(Anonymous) on January 22nd, 2008 01:12 am (UTC)
I guess not. Nice to see I'm not alone with that. :)

Maybe there should be a note before every chapter: "WARNING: May cause sudden resperatory problems"
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Kitties: chasing butterfliesscoradh on January 22nd, 2008 06:51 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'll keep going until I've written what must be written. There is a readership there, which wasn't always the case in my earlier days. Don't think I'm not eternally grateful for that! It's just, when I watch people who started out at the same time as me climb so much faster ... but you've read all this already.

BB may suffer from a lack of impetus to finish it. It's not a top priority, anyway, as I have H/D World Cup to write for soon. =D