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15 September 2008 @ 08:22 pm
reasons why today failed  
1. I gave up on Moby Dick. IT'S SO BAD, YOU GUYS.

Coda to 1: I bought Airhead by Meg Cabot - I'm helpless to resist! also, depressed (see: 1). It's so much more amazing than Moby Dick, although I could wish Cabot had learned the basics of high school composition before landing the mega book deals.

2. I find bandom really unfriendly. It's a shame, because I like it so much - it's simple, the picspams are pretty, the fic is just to my taste, there are no great and raging debates about OOCness and second-guessing plots. Which were fun at the time, but also exhausting. I may be overly sensitive - I mean, CAN I have offended every single person in this fandom by existing, which is what it feels like? (And okay, my - two - fic contributions weren't stellar, but I'm not alone in that.)

3. It feels like this journal is becoming Whine-A-Lot's new castle, but it's that or retreat into lurkerdom all term. I have one original fic finished, but it needs major reworking; I have a bandom fic in beta but it also needs major reworking, and everything else is just majorly unfinished. Nothing to see here.

4. You know you're bored with HP when even sarahtales can't tempt you to read it. (On the other hand, everyone's read An Old Fashioned Unicorn's Guide to Courtship, right? I can't stop thinking about the forty percent he could have saved. Someone please squee with me about this.)

5. The crush. Oh god. Would I be bothered that he didn't seem to remember I was even there last week or want to be anything other than perkily enthusiastic about helping out Generic Student #1 (we are the first of his working life, see) - if I didn't fancy him? NO. BUT I DO. SO IT'S SHIT. AND EVERY TIME I TALK TO HIM, I WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FACE, BOTH DURING AND FOR HOURS AFTERWARDS. MY LIFE, SO FUN.

6. I want to sort out my summer elective, but the UCLA website chuckles as it thwarts me.

7. I haven't stuck to my diet changes. It's not major, but I've been getting through a packet of Oreos or those evil but delicious Tesco shortbreads a week. It all adds up. The huge female design flaw was giving child-bearing hips to women who don't need nor want them. GOD DOES NOT APOLOGISE FOR THIS INCONVENIENCE.
Current Mood: crankycranky
Current Music: fluorescent adolescent (the arctic monkeys)
(Anonymous) on September 15th, 2008 07:44 pm (UTC)

Though, even in my bored of HP phases, I always kept up with mistful >> I just kind of ignored the HP part
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: converse prettyscoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:10 pm (UTC)
She's totally entertaining no matter what, trufax.
peripatetic extemporizations: Brendon Jon are adorablehatoyona on September 15th, 2008 07:45 pm (UTC)
Dude, bandom can be kind of unfriendly, but not all of it! I consider myself an integral (haha) part of bandom, for real. Okay not for real, but I like to think there are friendly corners of bandom. It's more cliquey than unfriendly, I think.

Anyways, I'm sorry your crush is oblivious, clearly he's an idiot. I'm glad you don't shoot yourself in the face?

every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: Bollywoodscoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:11 pm (UTC)
Oh, I know! :DDD I just felt like making a sulky, sweeping statement of bitterness. Accuracy didn't entirely come into it.

Cliquey is the definition of unfriendly, I've always thought. It's like HP all over again - only smaller, so it's worse. MEH.

I would not know where to get a gun. ;D
(no subject) - hatoyona on September 15th, 2008 11:36 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - scoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:24 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - hatoyona on September 17th, 2008 12:17 am (UTC) (Expand)
skull_bearerskull_bearer on September 15th, 2008 07:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reccing the unicorn story. It made my evening :) The true heroes, eh?
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: hipposcoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
Ha, no prob! It probably made my LIFE (a slight exaggeration). I love the shades of Patricia C. Wrede.
Gossgossymer on September 15th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
You know you're bored with HP when even mistful can't tempt you to read it.

YES, THAT. It feels like ages since I read HP!fic beyond a single crack fic last month. I guess I'm just going to frollick in other fandoms till I find something irresistable again in H/D

(but fanart is always pretty XD)
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: realityscoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:12 pm (UTC)
I'm frollicking pretty tightly in bandom, which is frolic friendly zone! But I always made an exception for Maya ... an exception now ended, apparently. O WELL.
allyndra: Hot in Glassesallyndra on September 15th, 2008 08:11 pm (UTC)
3.It feels like this journal is becoming Whine-A-Lot's new castle, but it's that or retreat into lurkerdom all term. This is why I have made, maybe 2 posts in the last two and a half months. I feel like all I could do is complain. (This is not a criticism. I find your posts interesting even when they're about the suckiness of life, the universe, and everything.)

2. I haven't really tried to connect with anyone in bandom. I love the fic and picspams passionately, but I mostly just float around. Although, now that I think about it, I never put all that much effort into connecting with people in my other fandoms, but I still made friends while floating around in them. So, yeah. Not the most friendliest of places. *is extra friendly to make up for it*

5. Crushes suck balls.

7. I have decided that I don't care how many body mass charts say I'm overweight. I have a waist, and therefore I am fine with it. *glares menacingly at fat free cheese and low fat salad dressing*
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: sunflowerscoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:15 pm (UTC)
3. I can has vent?

2. I've tried, and it's seemed to bomb. Even the people I do connect with seem to do it in an 'oh, you' sort of way. BNF syndrome is what I'd call it, which apparently did not die with the big fandoms after all. (This is why I keep trying to tempt people like jehnt across to the dark side ... to have someone to talk to!)


7. I'm not overweight, I just had love handles from an Ent's milk jug. They are sincerely attached to me, regardless of my feelings towards them.
(no subject) - allyndra on September 15th, 2008 09:06 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - scoradh on September 16th, 2008 07:05 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Neeryneery on September 15th, 2008 08:12 pm (UTC)
2. I'm sad that bandom feels unfriendly to you! I actually feel more included in this fandom than I did in SGA, where most of the people I liked had 500+ people on their flist and 100 comments on every post, and it was really hard not to feel like the most insignificant tiny cog in a giant wheel, even though almost everyone was also very friendly. Is it anything specific, or just a general feeling? I know there's a lot of cliquishness, because there are so many Chicagoans and NYCers who all know each other, but I've always found it pretty easy to find people to talk to.

6. What is it with university websites? I almost cried the last time I tried to pick an elective.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: bands: Hush Sound: haystacksscoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:20 pm (UTC)
Oh, SGA. I floated there for a while but didn't even attempt to connect - it was just too big and the fic is so accomplished. You wouldn't think that would be a problem, but. It was!

I suppose it's because I spent four years building a rep in HP - not the easiest thing to do - and I seem to have to start from scratch again.

It's pretty damn specific: it's the general dilatoriness in responding to comments. Any comments! Like fics that get maybe ten comments - no response. I've given up commenting on picspams and so on, it's a waste of time. It's like 90% of bandom - everyone who was there before the end of 2007 or something - decided to close the gates and they just don't want to know after that. Even the BNFs in HP didn't do that; there, it was way more about the fact that their fics et all got literally hundreds of comments and they had huge-ass flists, so it was down to the impossibility of fair number management or whatever. Here, it seems like there's a list of people who have conversations and stuff, while everyone else just doesn't exist.

Or I'm just paranoid, I'm not sure. Either way, it sucks, because it tarnishes my enjoyment.

I cannot find a histopathology one ANYWHERE, dammit.
(no subject) - neery on September 15th, 2008 08:40 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - scoradh on September 16th, 2008 07:08 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on September 15th, 2008 08:20 pm (UTC)
A not-terrible-anonymous person who has been on your flist since forever, since HP. I just felt weird pimping non-anonymously.

Anyway, Due South/C6D. Best fandom I have ever, ever been in. Sometimes people mandate the niceness a bit more than I would like, but it's extremely friendly. Very limited junk, lots of ways to branch out, and other than the main Fraser/RayK, Fraser/RayV split, most people read cross-pairing and across the Canadian canon. We're lots of fun! No bandom angst except from omphale23! (And I think you'd only be our second Irish person.) :) Start with cesperanza's fic if you're interested and you haven't already tried us out.

Oh, and word on the hips. Can't even USE mine if I want to.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: Bollywoodscoradh on September 15th, 2008 08:24 pm (UTC)
I'm preeeeeeeeeeetty sure I know who you are, o anonymous one. ;D

The funny thing is I never go looking for new fandoms - they find me. Bandom - and, I suppose, any RPS - has the advantage of not requiring any 'canon' knowledge. (You pick it up, sure, but it's more out of interest than requirement.) I would feel I had to watch Due South before reading fic, which means I'd have to buy it, and I never enjoy very much films/shows I watch for the fandom (hi, SGA). Still, if this bandom shit keeps getting me down I might consider it.

I just want to look like a boy, as fashion dictates. Is that too much to ask?!
Sarah Rees Brennansarahtales on September 15th, 2008 09:36 pm (UTC)
We does what we can to entertain! *makes a grateful curtsey for the unicorn recommendation*

every Starbucks should have a polar bear: bands: PATD: Brendon's squishyscoradh on September 16th, 2008 07:02 pm (UTC)
Ahh, obedience! This is what I like to see in writers. ;P
picklevictory on September 15th, 2008 09:47 pm (UTC)
Re: 1
So, sorry Moby Dick didn't work out. But even if you never pick it up again, I highly recommend Sena Jeter Naslund's Ahab's Wife. Long, plotty, very nicely written, and the unconventional woman at the center of the story is engaging. I confess to skimming some of the portions where she gets heavily into the New England literary scene (I was reading it at the beach, don't judge me) but totally plan to reread it one of these years.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Disney: Little Mermaid pink dress of winscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:31 pm (UTC)
Re: 1
I know there is an Ahab in Moby Dick, but I haven't read far enough to actually meet him. I'm kind of bogged down with meeting a) a town b) an inn c) a picture in said inn d) a cannibal. All in minute detail.

Seriously, though, how can you write a boring cannibal? That's some mad skill right there.

Edited at 2008-09-16 06:36 pm (UTC)
Re: 1 - picklevictory on October 10th, 2008 04:59 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Racey Laceyklasie on September 15th, 2008 11:07 pm (UTC)
Moby Dick = Terrible book. Been there, read that, have never been so bored in my life. I considered burning it, as it would have been much more interesting on fire, but that was against my moral book code.

Also, sorry about the crush. Maybe it would help if you thought of your life as a particularly witty, Meg Cabot-esque, book, and you just haven't met the guy who shows up on pg. 38 yet.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: bands: FOB: Andy lol'dscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:38 pm (UTC)
I was pretty sure I wouldn't like it even slightly, but I haven't bailed on a book in nearly four months. I am currently made of fail.

Lately the heroines keep falling for guys they were friends with all along, which would be ... hideous, considering my male friends.

Still, I do own a lot of pink.
mrsquizzical: greta pianomrsquizzical on September 15th, 2008 11:30 pm (UTC)
i know what you mean with bandom. i've been pretty shocked with the number of sort of ... rebuffs i've received. but i have found a couple of exceptionally nice people there to sort of balance things out.

plus i dragged maple in to keep me company, so i'm a bit spoiled there. most of my squee happens on im to her.

you're free to join in that if you like.

my bandom posts only ever get comments from a couple of people.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: fishscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:43 pm (UTC)
Same here - I know a small number of awesome people (that I completely ignored while making that statement, obvs!) - but the rebuffs. I just don't get it. It's not like I'm expecting to make BFFs with everyone in fandom, but when I do bother my ass to review it's usually more than '\o/'; yet the \o/s get a thanks and mine don't. I mean. Is it that people WANT \o/ responses and I just didn't get the memo?

That would be sweet, although I'm probably in a different timezone? And also tend to fail at IM, but still. :D

If I don't it's because I'm busy and/or on dialup, in case you're wondering! Not personal.
(no subject) - mrsquizzical on September 16th, 2008 09:40 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Sereniaserenia on September 16th, 2008 12:10 am (UTC)
My husband has child-bearing hips! XD
I've gotta stop eating junk, but it's already 29C during the day, and icecream beckons most enticingly!
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: Converse kissscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:44 pm (UTC)
But ice cream surely doesn't have CALORIES? D: (It should be a negative calorie food, like celery. It should be a law!)
(no subject) - serenia on September 16th, 2008 10:14 pm (UTC) (Expand)
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every Starbucks should have a polar bear: bands: PATD: stars etcscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:49 pm (UTC)
It maybe has something to do with MCR versus PATD? (I actually don't think FOB has much of a fandom on its own - or if it has, I haven't come across it.) MCRers seem to be slightly cooler, in the relaxed, 'this isn't a job' kind of way. Maybe because MCR is all about the black ripped jeans and saving lives, while you gotta admit most Panicers are in it for the pretty.

But Airhead is so great! It's like fucking magical realism, only not all crap like GG Marquez.
tell me your heart doesn't race for a hurricanejocondite on September 16th, 2008 06:14 am (UTC)

Also, seriously, do let me know if I can do anything to help you feel more welcome in bandom in any way, okay? My email is in my profile.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: bands: Hush Sound: Greta is prittyscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:58 pm (UTC)
I ENJOY hating books. I ... DISENJOY? not finishing them. Pah.

Aw, shucks. You have never made me feel unwelcome! And probably it's all just the mole-hilling paranoia talking. (Although, if you're willing to perform a quick beta - all in the line of duty! - when I maybe, actually, finish something ... it would be nice to have the validation. ;D)
(no subject) - jocondite on September 17th, 2008 03:02 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Lord Marmaduke Newbrycatsmeat on September 16th, 2008 07:44 am (UTC)
The whinging doesn't faze me, because every single one of your posts is a) readable b) enjoyable.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Art: skyscoradh on September 16th, 2008 06:55 pm (UTC)
Unlike c) my life! LOL.
(no subject) - catsmeat on September 16th, 2008 08:39 pm (UTC) (Expand)