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18 September 2005 @ 10:05 pm
GIP, among other things. Ron, he speaketh the truth.  

I've just had something of an epiphany and I thought I should record it here, for later times when I feel blue. It will, quite possibly, make no sense at all to anyone else, so feel free to basely ignore this.

Reviewing can be as good as writing. Saying to someone else the sorts (varying, obviously, in the detail) of things that you wish other people would say to you ... it makes me feel good. Maybe my reviews are piles of animal excrement, maybe the authors roll their eyes at them, and maybe some appreciate them. It doesn't really matter; often just a little effort is required to make someone else feel good about their writing.

Then again, there are times I just read fics and don't leave feedback. Initially I did that all the time. Yet, and this is the thing, I had places where I'd  go, authors I'd rely on, to produce writing that I enjoyed. If they decided that, because they weren't getting enough or good enough quality reviews, to pack it all in and delete everything and leave fandom, then I'd feel annoyed and deprived. All because they didn' t know that me and people like me might be reading their writing and liking it, but just not saying so.

In relating it to myself, it occurred to me that, on the level of averages and chance and no accounting for taste, that there might be one or two people who feel like that about my fics. So often lately I've been gripped by a great desire to delete all my archived stories and just focus on rainspots, because if nothing else my later stuff has to be better than the older stuff. But, if there's even one person who finds my work a comfort blanket to return to again and again, as I find so many writers' work, or even if they do a flyby and laugh at one of them, then it's not right that I should delete all of it in a fit of pique.

Er, that was pretty much my epiphany. It's a big deal to me, anyway. I'm not going anywhere. Sometimes that's a more astonishing thing than going somewhere.

skuf, if you read this, I feel I've let you in for some flak. That wasn't fair. Really and truly, you're right. Bloody hell, you're a catalyst. 

So, I'm sorry.

Ain't this life so sweet?

Whether or not anyone notices, I'm going to try and be here, a bit more, instead of spending all my time in the place where I wish I was.

Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: "This Year's Love (had better last)," David Gray
every Starbucks should have a polar bearscoradh on September 19th, 2005 12:44 pm (UTC)
Man, all your icons are gorgeous? Where do you get them? They make me want to drop everything and blatantly ship Seamus/Dean (even though I just recently wrote Seamus/Neville). *marvels*
doctor watson is my copilot: deamus ~giftart for me by harkskarkaalee on September 19th, 2005 06:48 pm (UTC)
Re: PS
Icons? Several of them are from art that some incredibly talented and nice people have made for me. (eeee! seamus/neville! I wrote it, too! you must LINK ME!)

and I pretty much blatantly ship Seamus/Dean. Ask anyone on my flist. I write a lot of different things, but s/d is like, my... love.
every Starbucks should have a polar bear: Harry kissscoradh on September 20th, 2005 03:51 am (UTC)
Re: PS
Wow, I'm jealous! But they're seriously beautiful. I'm just staring at the one where Dean is painting Seamus ... I mean, H/D icons are ten a penny and you get pretty 'blah' about seeing Radcliffe and Felton in a manipped clinch over and over. These are ver' refreshing!

This is the Seamus/Neville I wrote. There's not much to go on, as a ship, so it's not like I had a great standard to compete against. Ergo it's crap, but with rareships you often have to take what you're given, sadly. :P

Yes, I gathered that. It's really cool; you can do so much with it, and them, because you're not so restricted as you are with H/D, or even R/S, and you can play around and extrapolate to your heart's content! I love rareships; I did a lengthy hand at Terry/Michael before canon went and screwed things up back in July. xD